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[Apr. 5th, 2009|10:57 pm] |
breathe slow.
spit even harder.
my lap is hot.
my balls are getting cancerous.
hand me this.
"nothing is getting done and time is moving too fast."
on an another and on the same...
my lap just got a facebook account.
my wall is on fire and i have more messages then friends.
bore bore bore.
my
core core core.
to our
lord lord lord.
on my
for for for. |
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| serbia: a letter to mariya |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|07:43 pm] |
i thought you were being obscure.
that ten grand was spent in chile.
chilly.
rilly.
killy.
milly.
frilly.
hillbilly.
i was kidding about the serbian food. i know that
about you. i know that about you and your family.i
know that you. i knew that it was you about you. i
know that about you. and i know that about
serbians. my father is in business with a man from
serbia and his wife. theyre in the documentary. well,
at least he is:
(insert link here)
the first one is a trailer that we filmed in toronto
during christmas and the second is a sequence that i
put together to see how the footage looks. its not the
film but in that footage you will see serbia.
or a representation of it in form of a man that drives
and fixes trucks.
move it,
carlo |
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| almost more: a letter to alden |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|07:41 pm] |
alden,
thinking about you. listening to these two tracks you
sent me and i want more. going for a !DRINK! with
jeana and mitch.
i want to drive somewhere. go somewhere.
i think we should drive east.
rent a car and go east... is that wise?
something like a phenomenas or road trip.
skip all this and go onto the next.
with jobs caressed ready to go on
and through another mop
not another drop
six cops talk at beri-uqam and the "bitch" that never
takes a shower.
i went to two banks today and they treated me very
well.
how was your day.
today.
how was your day.
two=day.
much love,
carlo |
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| In Buenos Aires |
[Mar. 24th, 2008|06:03 pm] |
so after the three week shoot of EL HUASO i decided that it would be a good idea to spend time in one of the few big cities i love. i´m staying with my friend MARGARITA who i met about four years ago in southern PERU where she was travelling with her father.
a very gifted photographer, these are pictures she´s taken since my arrival.
1) when i arrived the other day it was humid and you could feel a storm was in the air.
MARGA and i grabbed some bikes and chased it.
2) after an hour in the market the fucker dropped. hot as sin we peddled through her neighbourhood having a gay ol´ time.
3) easter day we had this wondering dinner at MARGA´s grandmother´s house. the food was incredible. after the feast MARAGA, JOAQUIN (her brother) and i went to his place, an old rubber factory converted into an artist CO-OP.
4) here i am with JOAQUIN talking about something i don´t really remember.
looks important.
5) BUENOS AIRES was the first city in latin america to have a subway. this is one of the first carts in it´s existence.
6) JOAQUIN and i at the last stop.
7)when we arrived at JOAQUIN´s place we decided to go on a rubber factory safari. everyone armed with their camera we explored places that MARGA hadn´t even seen.
8)the place was full of these little corners with pretty old machines
turn after turn, all these incredible textures.
15) the light that was bleeding into this building was consistently blowing my mind.
9)
me inside looking at one of the rooms the size of an airplane hanger.
10) on the roof of the building eating a dried plum.
11) JOAQUIN and i examining our images from the safari.
12)me spitting out a plum pit.
13) me looking at my pictures.
14) sunset on the roof of the artist CO-OP
16) me again.
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| summertime |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|09:33 am] |
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"two miles an hour, so everybody sees you." |
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| HOLDING PATTERN versus BLUE LIGHT BLOCKADE |
[Jan. 28th, 2008|12:15 pm] |
evan,
i'm sorry to say but BLUE LIGHT BLOCKADE was a far far
far superior band than HOLDING PATTERN.
i would have to say that if it was in percentage of
the best work you've ever done as a musician it would
go something like this:
1) ROCKETS RED GLARE - 96.7%
people are going to look back on this and realize that
they made a mistake in ignoring it. not championing it
and giving you guys a proper home.
live you guys were better than any band in toronto at
the time.
2) BLUE LIGHT BLOCKADE - 92.4%
seriously evan, have you heard lately those recordings you
guys did? they're fucking amazing. truly amazing
work. better than 1/3 of my music collection.
i'm not fucking around. it has an energy that is
missing in music today.
do you have the dats still?
could you get that mix and mastered.
i would put it out with you just to get that shit out
and documented. seriously. holy fuck. im listening to
it now and it's just blowing my fucking mind.
3) Blake - 88.7%
you would have received a higher score if you guys
would have quit after the A SIDE of the split 12" :-)
of course at the time, because i was your biggest fan,
i would have said something to effect..."FUCK YOU!
DONT QUIT!!! WHAT? YOU A FUCKING QUITER!?!?!?!
YOU FUCKING QUITERS!!!!!!!
but now... objectively. a side takes the cake.
4) Holding Pattern - 85.6%
you would have scored higher if you never let lee
sing. (i love you lee.)
4) Mr. Penny records - 78.8%
Mr. Penny live - 82.6%
5) Psycho Canucks - 71.2%
most of that score has to do with two thing
1) "like fugazi i'm in on the killer taker. breaker.
here comes the taker. BOOM!" and because of the size
of your balls when you were doing that project.
I
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A
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last night i had dinner at my friend alden's,
who i think you know from the UNICORNS or maybe not.
the music he's making right now is really exciting.
but brendan, victoria's friend was there. he who was
in "LES ANGLE LE MORT". anyways, we were talking how
amazing of a musician you were. brendan said that people would kill to be in a band with in montreal because of what you did in ROCKETS RED GLARE.
i think if you move to montreal you SHOULD start a band.
and if you want to be in one with me i will say HELL YES!
and if not, i still think you need to be in a band because it's
bullshit you're not creating music and sharing it with the world.
BLB forever.
love,
carlo |
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| website |
[Jan. 10th, 2008|01:23 am] |
www.artprocool.com
some new videos... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 9th, 2008|11:47 pm] |
my back is burning. a whole world ready to escape from something that was dream't by me last night.
last night it was a dog.
a dog that would follow me around with love.
a dog that didn't bark when there was another.
a dog that jumped on me and played with the tenderness i gave it.
a dog that i've always wanted but never knew existed.
a dog that didn't belong to me.
a dog that brought me less loniness.
a dod that could very well be my best friend.
i have a hard time thinking of what to say when the message is to you.
when the email address is directed to you.
but the heart and what it represents could be anyone in my life.
but it's you and you're in my life and i want it to stay that way.
monday at 12:00pm
next monday at 1:00pm
100 dollars an hour.
time to solve.
time to move forward.
time to change.
time to forget
and repeat
and never repent
time to drive to another country
time to not regret and forget what i said.
she said what she means.
she's not mean.
she means well.
in that i believe in myself.
i believe of something bigger because the world can be so beautiful.
i believe in myself.
i can believe in another.
a lover.
someone who keeps me posted.
critic.
hard sneak
ers.
jump up and down.
till i get tired.
from one to next
i break my word
that i will never do that again.
and again.
i do it the same way.
stay in that moment.
don't forget where you are.
don't forget where you came from.
don't forget that it is okay to refine
that different sense of another wor(l)d.
i didn't use the one
you think you heard.
i'm in it
with an order of things.
from one to the next
i pray with you on my chest.
rested.
i break defenses.
cause you (to) matter to me
jet from a rocking chair
i run my fingers
through that black curly
you grow hair for me
i wore long pant for thee
chinos
latinos
natural greasy doesn't come
by those who see it
easy
i brought a broken sun
it all boils down
please don't tease me.
i will always,
like a friend or a lover
three table spoon and
a flower
brooklyn whatever
i break it off
and meet whenever
a one week break
i've got no more
to give forever
what it takes
it takes time
we all have choices
back again alone
i'll stay with my choices.
i'll share and give you
spoons when you return
still hard i'll hold your back
until you find it the same
the last time you came
you whispered in my ear
"don't change your career"
i never even thought about
till you brought it up. |
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| ottawa. |
[Jun. 12th, 2007|11:59 am] |
im ottawa for a theatre conference and festival. im taking a class in CANADIAN THEATRE and part of it was to come to this festival.
frustrating. the state of what is called canadian theatre is troubling. makes me want to just go home and put my head down and work.
its troubling because people arent challenging themselves enough. theyre using the same formula. the same old song and dance. if things are changing and envolving then why shouldnt theatre. why do people treat it like such an antique. |
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| papi |
[May. 26th, 2007|01:33 am] |
my favourite huaso...
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| the grand mass |
[May. 26th, 2007|01:26 am] |
we'll be there soon chris... we'll be there soon.
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| (no subject) |
[May. 26th, 2007|01:07 am] |
i miss working in the winter already...
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| its good to be home... |
[May. 17th, 2007|10:59 am] |
so here i am. in hub the of downtown toronto again and things are aligned where i hope they would be.
last night my parents invited some chilean-swedes that are friend's of the family and who i stayed with when i travelled to sweden long ago. i had an idea that they might plan this get together because they told me that the family was eager to see me. after a long and relaxing train ride i arrived at home where i gave my lovely father a big hug and kiss. i havent seen him since christmas because he's spent most of the winter in chile being what he loves... a cowboy. un huaso chileno.
things between arianne and i are slicker than ever. our communication is key with bumps along the way. LE PRODUCION HANDSHAKE (gross) is riding smoothly and well.
this morning while i had breakfeast with my lovely mother where we talked about "my future." she very kindly advised that i think of doing a masters so that i have teaching "to falling back on." i am now in a position in my life where i can calmly and graciously respond with love and order. im in love with my work to that that its not for me. to say simply that its not what im focused on right now. things between the company, arianne and i are so new that i need to give this "film thing" the hardest and best push i can. so in order for that to come to fruition, the push has to maintain focused, not a masters. what i do know and what said to my mother with wide eye, is that when i make a film people listen and respond positively. i have never done anything that felt so right and that fits so well into what i want in my life. it was this thinking that i was able to give my the response of "i dont think that a masters is an option for me right."
things are so richer right with the people in my life.
i got together with a friend the other day that ive had crush on... well, since i first met her. the crush has always been up and down depending on the circumstances. but when we get together our lives light up and bloom. completely engaged and inside each others presence we seem to bring out the best in each other. .
she's going through a rather large transition in her life. but then again, so am i… and how lovely it is sit in her light and breathe.
today, i truly feel loved and blessed.
(phone rings)
i just got off the phone with producer extraordinaire arianne shaffer. i almost start to cry thinking how much i love her and daniel and how much im happy it will be them by my side this weekend as we try to capture the madness that is SHOWCASE AMERICA.
solid soldiers. good friends. great family. |
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| do i even dare... |
[May. 14th, 2007|10:38 pm] |
do i even try to write something?
to even try to describe the madness, the rollercoasters, the burned nights that take me closer to something i never knew existed.
these weeks, these months, have been full of so many events that if listed, i would just sound like some huge dick that has all this wicket shit going for him.
well. if i never mentioned it before, i have a producer. i great producer. and her name is arriane shaffer and she's top drawer.
we've started a production company called simply: THE HAND SHAKE. we had to register the fucker as a business in quebec so that we could get a GST number and they forced us to call it LE PRODUCION HANDSHAKE, which i think sound completely retarded, but retarded in the retarded sense, not the retarded way... because we at THE HANDSHAKE like retards, especially leotards. the tight ones that dont bunch up in the crotch.
the other day i was super depressed. probably because women seem to tell me that they are in love with me and then pull back when i start getting real and plan shit out so that we can make it work. BUT then pull back because WE DONT COMMUNICATE WELL. well let me tell you that i have no idea what the fuck people are talking these days about A TYPE OF COMMUNICATING. all i know is that there's two types of communicators, the one who TALK ABOUT IT !NOW! TODAY. IN! THE! MOMENT! or the peps who repress it and TALK ABOUT IT LATER OR and sometimes NEVER COMMUNICATE IT at all… making shit always that much worse cause its pushed down and repressed... im a fan of the first one. nip the fucker in the bud, while we can still have some context. some feeling and get a sense of what we’re all about.
yes yes yes. alone and proud. searching and how... like most people my age, trying to figure how the fuck a relationship works when people continue to think about MY CAREER and what I WANT... what about what WE want. where the fuck is the WE in relationships these days. why is everyone so fucking afraid to agree on something !TOGETHER! christ.
there's some pretty tasty ladies that are going to be swimming around my neighborhood this summer that ive developed crushes on. so the eagle still flies and can continue to seek and see its highs and lows.
where is chris when you need him...
in the next month im going to be in three cities. new york, toronto and ottawa. in new york im going to be meeting with some producers that arianne and i think would be great for the feature length documentary we're working on called THE HARTINGS... about the blind family that sings at the GUY/CONCORDIA metro.
i got a job at POP MONTREAL as the film curator/programmer. that took me to HOT DOC! where arianne and i, but mostly arianne, pitch the shit out of THE HARTINGS and scored us some meetings with CTV and the NFB.
cross your bloody bloody fingers.
so time in school is going well. the end of my last term i finished with straight A's and one A+, which brings my GPA to 3.56. i think thats pretty good considering ive never ever bought a text book in my entire university career. i also got an award from the den's office for the work i did at MOTHER HUBBARDS. we broke some pretty serious records with attendance. and love the smile. we all love the smile. i want more smile.
so thats something to be proud of.
i also got an award in the film program for OUTSTANDING ACHIEVEMENT IN FILM PRODUCTION. they gave me some money. so i was really happy about that one. the short film PEGGY, DENIS & LAUVIAH that i made with the same blind from THE HARTINGS, was well received by my peers and the audience at the screening. arianne with our new intern hassan is going to send it to a bunch of festivals. we're in the middle of trying to get a website up on the same domain that www.thehandshake.org is at. i will most likely move all the shit on the current site to www.carloguillermoproto.com or some shit like that.
gus is going to visit me this summer sometime in july. im really looking forward to that. mostly im just looking forward to july because i will only have one class two nights a week… easy peasy.
i just finished an APPLIED HUMAN SCIENCE class where just about everyone in my group cried except for this fly cat named JUDGE. it was a pretty intense process because it dealt with how an organization works. making something function as either a horizontal or vertical organization. we all had to come together in our groups to prepare a presentation on OUR PROCESS as a group. the class was from 9am - 5pm at the LOYOLA CAMPUS, which pretty much meant that i was out the door at 7am and home at 7pm everyday. i would recommend it to anyone trying to find ways on how to better their skills in group dynamics. my whole philosophy in the class was that "if i cant get along with these random people then i probably shouldnt be making films." by the end of the week i had the APPLIED HUMAN SCIENCE lingo down... everyone was surprised that i'd never taken an AHS class but i guess being in theatre for all that time i pretty much always in training. theatre is all about creating a creative environment that everyone is comfortable in. an environment where everyone is on equal terms and can speak creatively to anything that they feel needs to be addressed.
really great process.
now i sit here sniffing my nose and knows at an filled allergy season where im staying away from wheat, dairy and sugar so that it doesnt become more than it has to be.
tomorrow i meet up with sweet sweet nika and then a final meeting before toronto with arianne. i leave on wednesday for a four day shot with arianne and dan. denis, the main character of the documentary, is auditioning for this thing called SHOWCASE AMERICA. its apparently some talent showcase for top talent that brings in record companies from all over the world. we've been investigating and it seems like SHOWCASE AMERICA might not be what they say they are.
i am still debating if i am going to tell denis about the info we found. while making a doc you question how involved you want to become in the subject's life. my rule is i dont say anything unless they ask me… i might have to make an exception… it might be too late. you had to pay 700 dollars to get into the showcase and the money is already in… think think think… think think think think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think… think think think think think think think think think think think think… think think think…… think.
im confident that it will all go well.
so much more to tell...
peace be onto we. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|01:52 pm] |
being around people who share a lot makes you want to share less... more has gone on in my life in the past six months than probably in the past six years... i am so tired...
my mind is blank. i wouldnt even know where to start... |
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[Feb. 17th, 2007|12:22 pm] |
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how does this happen... how is it that hayden has made his way back into my ears? |
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